Multi-award winning gospel artiste, Kirk Franklin has opened up on how he battled depression and anxiety at the start of the year, amid a string of deaths among his friends.
Recall that the songwriter recently lost a close associate and mentor, Lois Evans, wife of Pastor Tony Evans, who died from a rare form of cancer. Franklin had been a member of their church for many years.
Also, he has had to be in support of Christian artist, TobyMac, who lost recently lost his 21-year-old son.
“[In] 2019, I experienced a high amount of loss in my life. I went to more funerals in 2019 than I’ve ever been to in my life. I went to the funerals of friends, the funerals of people’s parents and the funeral of people’s kids and it was a lot,” the performer stated on Instagram Friday.
“It just really brought a lot of anxiety. To me, I really struggle with a lot of anxiety and really got into a funk that I couldn’t really get out of. [It was] this just really dark funk, that I was in, depression, battling it. Not only that, just the anx that death can bring to you also is this anxiety about the future. It’s a fear of who’s next, what’s next?” he confessed.
Franklin is currently on a trip to Dominican Republic where he went to decompress. He said he’s been in talka with a ‘godly’ therapist to help me get through the pain.
“I was just talking to him about being very anxious and very consumed with fear and worry and just the struggle with it all. He said, ‘When I begin to live a life of gratitude, more gratitude then I will begin to be more selfless because fear is rooted in self,” Franklin said.
“Think about it, when you start a fearful conversation it’s ‘What about me? What’s going to happen to me? How am I going to pay my bills? How am I going to make it? They’re going to hurt me, I’m going to get sick, I’m going to lose this’… Everything starts with I, it’s very self-focused. So if we can begin to live a life of gratitude, always giving thanks even when things are dark, they could be darker.”
His trip to the Dominican Republic also helped him to realize how fortunate he is. Franklin said he’s witnessed “seven and eight and nine people sleep in one bedroom with no electricity, no windows.” He also talked about the danger of sex trafficking in the country.
“I promise you. It can be worse. So living a life of gratitude, then you will begin to be more selfless, give God thanks for what He has already done,” the Texas native continued.
Franklin shared one final piece of advice his therapist gave him.
“He said to me ‘Kirk, you need to be more grateful.’ I’m saying it to you this way. ‘I am a miracle I am not acknowledging.’ You need to say that to yourself; you need to look at yourself in the mirror and say, ‘I am a miracle I am not acknowledging’ because when we’re so busy worrying and in fear or whatever, we forget that because it could be worse. Seeing another day is a miracle.”